Wow, been awhile?
So, I don’t where to begin, Honestly I don’t. Though I can start by saying that I’m finally free.
Or am I?
I had been living with anorexia for around 3 years now and I can finally say that I think I’m free now. Free from the everyday living hell of terror. Yes I am still iffy on food but I still eat no matter what.
Well I actually been having a problem with my stomach and so I went for a colonoscopy at a hospital and oh my goodness, the anesthesia killed me. Worse pain ever D:! But other than that the doctor said there was nothing nasty in me so I was all good. Then what’s wrong with my stomach? Aha I don’t know, but it’s okay I’ll find out soon with my local gp.
Other than that, my liver is all good too :). So I’m happy that I’m able to be all healthy again however there’s just one thing.
You think she would leave me alone and let me eat whatever I want right?
The most frustrating thing.
She is constantly behind me telling me to eat this eat that. I’m perfectly fine but she doesn’t believe me and it hurts that she thinks that way. I don’t want to be reminded about my dark past but she keeps on reminding me by always coming behind me and calling me at a particular time to eat. Like farout.
I’m over my dark days. You think I want to destroy my body by going through anorexia again?
I’m not even allowed to exercise normally to be fit (not to lose weight!). Even my cousin, my grandma and my friends all think she’s gone crazy. She’s gone overboard. I could mention a lot of stories with my Mum and how she acts, but I’ll leave that for another time.
For now, ciao xx